The end of the year is already nearing, but my mind is still in 2018. I do not know why but it felt like 2019 just passes by so quickly. Days go on and I haven’t really felt much have changed in my life. Yes, I got older, but did I ever aged well this year?
It sads me that I was not able to really complete my monthly journal this year. Due to lack of time, August till this month was not been documented nicely. Damn, I really need to fix my schedule next year.
My goal in the year 2019 was to really open my very own company. To have my very own business. To sell a product I can call my baby. Something I really love, with all those elements mirroring my self. I failed to do so.
I was also aiming to reach a certain amount in my savings but felt short that all throughout the year, my balance just stays how it was since the year started.
In terms of career, I think it didn’t really move up. If it did, it was unnoticeably too little. The competition with the new ones is really tough this year and I think I am already getting nearer at the end of the tier. This coming year, If odds did not favor, would be the pivot in my career.
I did own a vehicle this 2019, I was able to own two. But it gave me a headache parking it (illegally?) just outside the house, on the side road. I ended up selling it after a few months.
Did I gain new friends? Or did I lost some? Are my current relationship to them became even stronger? Or it started to be less and less visible. Making my circle even less small.
To my family, we are all growing old, having separate lives. Honestly speaking, separating from them at my young age felt like a regret I am kind of reaping this time.
There are a lot of questions running into my head while thinking about the year that is almost passing. Was I a good person? Did I do good for people? Was I better than before? Or still, like a man in a boat without a paddle going towards the unsighted goal.
I guess it is time to sit down and make the assessment. Set the right goals to target. Plot steps, cause time is always in a hurry. And at the end of another century, I am hoping that life, in general, would be better.
Here are some of the highlights of my year 2019.
