It’s official! Today I turn 33! Thou to tell you honestly, I actually stop counting my age years ago (I think most of the people do), rather what I count now are the experiences and the moment I shared with people that I care for. I think the more you get older, the more you would consider how precious time is.
Growing up with a very low self esteem, at my current age, sometimes I still have those moments of negativity – But at the end of the day, I try my best to convinced myself that everything would be all right. That life is just a long journey of ups and downs, there are struggles and there are discoveries. As I progress, I’ve learn new things in life, I’ve met new people, I’ve loss some, I’ve experience to be hurt, to love, and to discover who I am.
Few days ago, I felt really bad about my self, that in my current situation, I feel that I’m such an underachiever, that I was way too far behind. I don’t have big things in life, I felt that I’m not that good with the things I do, that I don’t have a place I can call mine, a car I can drive home, or maybe a relationship I could cherish.
A good friend told me a few hours before I wrote this article, that I felt bad because of the word “expectation.”
I said, “ako, mababaw lang naman ako …” then he replied, “ baka mataas expectations mo”. I stop and think, he said “if mababaw ka, dapat you’re always happy and always be grateful. Mas happy kung mas simple ang expectations.”
Then I realized, he got a point. I might be looking for something else that I fail to notice small things that I’m receiving everyday. That achieving something big is not an instant, there is a ladder you need to climb, that you should appreciate and cherish each step that you take. That if ever you face difficulties in life and move back, try and do your best to double up the efforts and do a two steps forward.
At 33, there is still a lot of things to learn, to conquer and to discover. Its a lifelong journey, a personal travel I take, and you take as well. I’ve learn that no matter how good or bad the situation is, I should always be thankful, through the help of God, I could still wake up each day to become a better person everyday.
Cheers! For the adventurers of life!
What I’m wearing:
Shirt from Giordano Concepts
Pants from Bench
Duffel Bag from Girbaud
Photo by Photomark Lightworks Studio
